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mornings like this are the best. when things are good, it's amazing and you just go with it. even breakfast was worth taking time for. but then he had to go to work and that really sucked. but as i was driving home kelly texted me to go to the mall so we went for a couple hours. i used my h&m card for a necklace, beanie and lip gloss. definitely wearing the hat tonight because it's really cute and fits right for once. there's still $8 on the card so i'll probably go back and get something for mike. finished up the xxi card with a lot of jewelry, hair stuff and 10 pairs of socks i so desperately needed. first time ever they aren't kbell but they're cute and bright colors so whatever. talking to kelly is always reminding me i'll always have my best friend. we could not have talked for months, see eachother for a day and act like no time has passed in between. really wish i could sit through avatar for a second time and go with all them tonight but maybe i'll meet up with them after.
i wonder what really makes you say the things you do. it has to be how others respond to you and their personalities because i cannot be blamed how others act or if they want to see you. i don't appreciate being called out on things i can't change at the moment. i can't make the economy change and have it go back to when it was okay for a business to hire someone for a couple weeks and then they leave for school. i can't change that my parents won't give me a car or help me with one until i work steadily. sorry i don't make money because i'm concentrating on working towards my career that you pushed me to in the first place. there's a lot of things i want to change but i'm not sorry for. when it will change, it will be amazing. but until then, please understand. xo.