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i love kat von d. xo.

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reasons why i'm am really happy:
-handed in senior project today after 9 months of hell. i couldn't be happier with the final product.
-went to macy's and returned the necklace. bought really nice clothes for very cheap and have a lot on the giftcard left to enjoy at a later time.
-going home tomorrow for a busy weekend.
-found a shade of pink nail polish that isn't too barbie and isn't so light you can't notice.
-i graduate in 34 days.
-started talking to you today and it was nice to get to know someone new.
-it's less than 3 months until 3 years with mike. beyond ecstatic about this because no one seems to know how to handle a relationship.
-oh and, started losing weight again along with caring less about how i look and slowly stopping obsessing about it.

"be real, stay true. don't let your hopes disown you. how can you move forward when you live in the past? be thankful. you're given one love, one life, one chance."-from the pawn, "ambitions of man."

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saw this on fyeahtattoos and i think i'm gunna use the tattoo pen on myself tonight to see if i would like it..not those words of course, i would use the vanna lyrics. but for now, i have to finish senior project work so i can hand it in tomorrow. xo.

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"we're nothing short of invincible."-"reinventing your exit."

today is a sad day. it's sadder than if the band were to actually break up. aaron gillespie left underoath. the one band, besides bayside, that i've listened to and loved from the day they started. aaron was the last original member of UO and he's been one of my favorite people for just as long. his spiritual and humanitarian efforts are amazing. i got involved with twloha because of him. i've been to 13 underoath shows and seen them at every warped tour they've played (5). sadly i have only met him once, for 2 seconds, on accident. wow, i make it sound like he died or something. it feels like something died because while i know he will do incredible things with the almost and whatever else musical he will do, i don't think UO will ever be as good as they are with him. i wonder what will happen. after the news broke everywhere he posted in his blog saying, "its all good. times change, roll with the hurricane." i loved you for the last 11 years. thank you for all of it.

anyway..today was a great way to end break. woke up, showered, rushed and got to purchase. i thought mike was gunna leave when i went to class but he ended up staying until 7:30. really wish he didn't have to leave but 4 days is absolutely no wait. this week i realized how lucky i am to have him. i also realized that i don't have to try so hard on looking perfect or acting appropriately. every day, i hope i remember what he said to me: "i love when you can wake up, put your hair up and just go. you would look beautiful no matter what you do." love him forever.

oh, and my senior project pictures came in the mail today. SO GLAD THAT'S DONE WITH. excited to look at it thursday or friday, whenever i'm able to leave. mmmm k, need to do work. xo.

"i'm on my way to the top of the world and i've got a feeling i'll give it away."-"down, set, go."

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happy easter=] and, oh, so i'm kinda pretty today. that is all. xo.

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alanna and me after the show. it was entertaining to say the least. my favorite shows are the ones where the bands aren't my favorite but my best friends all come. the ghost inside, stray from the path, veil of maya, stick to your guns and unearth played. once again, i got hurt during veil of maya. the bottom of the barricade got lifted up, i got pushed back and it landed on my ankle and hurt it pretty bad. not fun today in heels but thankfully i can just wear sandals tonight at mike's. easter with my family was nice. i like the other country club better because of the food and stuff..this one had the nicer scenery. soo guess i'll finish packing then leave. maybe more later, idk. xo.

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i had the best birthday ever. for once, everyone that said they would come over actually did. so, thank you bobby, chris, johnnie, alex, david, ariana, law, cj, melissa, andrew, nicole, kevin, morrow and everyone else you showed up. and i'm really thankful to have mike and catherine in my life because i really don't know what i would do without them. love you guys. my day was amazing. oh, also earlier in the day i got my dress for easter and that made things less stressful. also got a really cute yellow hoodie from victoria's secret and the new perfume. don't know what's going on today but i know it'll be good. xo.