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the city was soooo good..we had dinner at the tipsy parson and it was honestly the best mela of my life. truffle mac and cheese, duck, chicken, lamb ribs, grasshopper cake and banana/peanut brittle cake, lemon/orange cider. wowwwww. after that we went into times square for the m&m world store and found these really gross looking m&m's but realized they were for the city..kinda cool. maybe write more later..really tired. xo.

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going to the city with mike<3
edit: went to this shop called maxilla and mandible and it was the craziest store ever. they had dead animals and bugs everywhere..even a bear head. i would go back but not because of the $20 cab ride it took to get there.

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haircuttttttttt. xo.

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found this from graduation last night. clearly describes our relationship lol. xo.

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mike found this shirt lying on the floor at the hotel. sorry for anyone who lost it, but you made me so very happy. xo.

edit: catherine told me something today that made me realize friendships can endure a lot of pain but someday, they will get better. all i want this summer is for everyone to be friends and i don't want any drama. i want to work and have a great day every single day. for once, i have no enemies and i'm not mad at anyone. life is perfect and i hope it stays this way. also, taylor leaves on wednesday and i'm really gunna miss her. fourteen years.. hope she comes back eventually in a good way.

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vanna later. xo.

edit: just going to write that for a show i waited so long for, what a disappointment. long island crews need to really stop ruining things for everyone. on the upside, vanna played an amazing 10 minute set.

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home! xo.

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i feel like i'm giving peeks of the book though i know no one ever reads this. and even if they do, no one cares about my project. anyway..going to the gym for the first time after a long time is the best feeling. i did 2 full hours and i could still have done more. spring break starts tomorrow. with the exception of the massive amounts of japanese food i'll be having, i want to eat really healthy for all of break. maybe even no meat (except for steak if i'm really feeling it). all i've had today is apples and peanut butter and a clementine. tonight is good too because eva, adam and i are doing dhall for salad and pizza. there's this "beauty party" thing that i'm kinda looking forward to. i don't know what it is but the flyer said free gift cards for organic makeup and victoria's secret gift cards. might as well check it out.

things to do before 2 tomorrow:
-write intro for photo book
-look over pictures and the order for the book
-skim Cold War book
-laundry and pack
-RELAX because this is the last night i have until the stress completely goes away until graduation

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the back cover of senior project. wuttupppppp. xo.

edit: jake announced the second set of bands for long island fest. SO FUCKING STOKED. bands: the banner, skycamefalling, this is hell, trapped under ice, the carrier, incendiary, maximum penalty, backtrack and like, 20 more.

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mike made turkey burgers last night..on the waffle iron for the george forman. crazy boyfriend<3 i guess i'm down to the last of everything. i'm editing pictures for the book today then photo shopping tomorrow..ordering it thursday, i guess. it's kinda exciting, kinda scary knowing graduation is a little more than a month away. xo.

edit: for anyone that's reading this and has a formspring, delete it. it's no longer funny, useful or anything else relevant. my friend charlie posted a status about something sad and people started asking what was wrong. he explained that his friend had a formspring and people tormented this girl so much and made her so upset that she killed herself last night. this shouldn't have ever happened to anyone. i didn't know this girl but it shouldn't have happened to someone that people are saying such sweet things about. i know what i went through in middle school and the beginning of high school and i know how i was then. if formspring was around back then, i don't know what would've happened to me. i definitely know i wouldn't have been strong enough to look past the nasty comments and just know that it's stupid kids saying things. thankfully, all we had was AIM and you were able to click out of it and ignore the message. it sounds so stupid but formspring has a much different effect. you could be flooded with hundreds of messages at once and just reading down the line of how much someone hates you and points out all your flaws. the internet itself is harmless..it's what people can do with it and feel uninhibited behind their computers and be able to say whatever they want. knowing what i went through, i don't know why i participated in the first place. again, though i didn't know her, rest easy alexis.

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drove downtown yesterday with mike and my mom because it was just too nice to stay inside. saw leah and emily, which was really nice. also got a lot of stuff at wal-mart like hunting knives, a machete and extremely cheap and cute nail polishes. going back to purchase tonight=[ xo.

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last night we went to henry's going away party. he's leaving monday for boot camp at parris island for 3 months. even though i don't see him as much as i'd like, i'm going to miss him. those are a group of the nicest, funniest guys i've ever met and they've been really good friends. xo.

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last night we went to the new puppy store and played with this one for a really long time. he's $1300 and i wish i could have him as a birthday/graduation/i'll never be mean again present. xo.

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coming home today=] xo.

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another beautiful day! spring is my favorite. eva and i went to the museum yesterday and this is the exhibition they have right now. it was done by Bruguera and the walls are lined with millions of used tea bags. that part i thought was awesome but everything else was really lame. i'm really excited to go home tomorrow morning..another 5 days home with mike and hopefully seeing a lot of people. i'm feeling as if people only wanna see him and avoid us when i'm home. it's probably just timing and other things but that's what it feels like. and when you're home i feel like you run to him instead of getting to know me better. if that's true, tell me. if not, change your actions. apparently we're going to henry's going away party on friday since he leave for boot camp on monday. i'm glad he's finally taking initiative and doing something his heart is into. hopefully nick will be there too. also, i'm sooooooo fn ready to be done with this project. one more shoot left then picking the last 20 pictures. i think i have to do one more edit on the paper too but i'm not sure. xo.

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love the poster i made yesterday=] xo.

edit: bayside answered me on formspring haha

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this is what i come back to school and see. the destruction from the storm last night looked like it was from a movie set. it took us 4 or 5 times to find an exit that was clear so we could get to campus. other than that, it was a good ending to a another good week. xo.

EDIT: BAYSIDE IS PLAYING CULTURE SHOCK OMFG.!

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today was a good day=]

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oh yeah, and i met matthew hasting<3 i'd say it was one of the best shows ever. xo.

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going to jersey today with mike, bobby and andrew for mychildren mybride. whatupppppppppp. xo.
edit: holy shit what a good show. fxzero opened and we walked in a little late for them. dr. acula played a pretty good set although their fans are horrible. then maybe one of the worst, breakdown apparent bands played..chelsea grin. i hope i never see them again on purpose. then for those who lie beneath. they were okay. then the red chord went on and they were just as good as they always are. davis never saw them before and by the end he said he really liked them. everyone had a good time. all i wanted all night were two things..get barricade for mcmb and meet matthew after their set. well, i got to the front for the entire set and loved it. they opened with "wings of integrity," played a couple new songs, "faithless" and closed with "headshot." afterwards, we met up with bobby (he got sick and stayed in the car during mcmb), charlie and zach and drove straight to Sonic. $50 later, had a good late dinner and drove through the city to get home. i think we got back at 3 a.m. or something but everything was so worth it. xo.

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after a 6 hour commute, at home with mikeeeeee! i love the present he got me..finally have an incendiary shirt all of my own. when he got to the train station, i really loved how we just sat there for a half hour talking as if we don't talk during the week. everything is really great right now and it has been like this lately. hope it never changes. xo.

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going to go hand in my life for the past 6 months right now..xo.

edit: had a good night hanging out with eva, emily and kaylin. this thing was mad good too..chocolate covered pretzel with fruity pebbles.

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can't wait until this over..homework, papers, articles. spring break can't come sooner.
things to do:
article about eulogy
article about mitchell davis
10-15 page history midterm paper
read wwII book
put quotes into senior project
finish taking pictures for senior project
order blurb book by the 23rd
think of new title for senior project?
figure out a place to go for spring break
order tickets for stick to your guns
figure out birthday plans
find a dress for my birthday
find a dress for easter
obgyn next monday
figure out if i want a graduation party!!!!???


xo.

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love this. today is going to be a great day. xo.

edit: kind of a bad day that turned out good but this needs to be said and i don't care anymore. gloria palma, you are a cunt. stop playing the victim. you are not that special and you don't deserve the protection you have from your friends.

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saw this on a blog and made it my own. i still need to think of a background or something. maybe add some wind movement. i think i might want this done soon, only better. i'll see what gin says. i wish i had unlimited money because i would get 5 or 6 tattoos at once and be done for awhile. xo.

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i love this picture. last night turned out really well. sarah and james got here around 6 and we left to go to denny's and sarah locked her keys in the car. university police were dicks and aaa were no help. by 7:45, a tow company came to unlock it and we were on our way. got to denny's by 830 and had one of the best orders of french toast ever. this was the first time meeting james and while i had my doubts and fears, i do like him. i think he was a little shy because it was the first time but he got a hug in the end which means i generally like you. got back to the apartment, hung out for awhile and they left. i started watching LA Ink to get more quotes that make sense for my project. i only intended on watching an episode or two but i'm on the 5th and i guess i'll just finish the season. i'm getting great quotes and also, my feelings about kat von d have changed a lot. i used to think she was trashy and just doing things for television but you watch her and you realize she's a really nice, genuine person. i wouldn't mind going to high voltage and getting a piece done. today's goals are getting a lot more quotes from the show, working on paragraph order and maybe doing some drawing. i'm really jealous about everyone today..mike is going to the fbtd show, catherine's getting a dress in the city, sarah's at home relaxing. too bad i have to wait until thursday to get home=] xo.

“Our shop turned out to be all women,” said Amber Acia aka Pixie of High Voltage Tattoo. “That’s great because the industry doesn’t get that, doesn’t see that, doesn’t know that. It’s going to be empowering and gratifying and amazing all at the same time.”

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did this seriously just happen? 5/8's finally. so i forgot i was doing that topic a day thing and tomorrow is the last day but today's is supposed to be my hopes and dreams for this year. my list is actually really long so here it goes. xo.

-be a nicer person to everyone and be a better friend
-be a better girlfriend
-graduate college
-dye my hair really blond during spring break
-grow my hair really long and never cut it except for very small trims and my bangs
-have the biggest, most ridiculous blowout of a party for my graduation
-buy a pug-a-poo and name it sprinkles
-lose 60lbs
-get backstage for a day to remember on both days in april
- finally see the rocket summer
-do warped tour in ny, nj, ct and pa
-maybe begin vegetarian (but i know i won't do it because i love wings too much)
-move to florida
-begin my dream job with no complaints or problems
-have a backyard show
-get at least 3 more tattoos
-do more photography
-roadtrip with mike and chris
-go to california
-buy my 1st car
-start a label for local bands (and try not to fail within 6 months)
-meet bam margera
-bake a rainbow cake
-if from the pawn gets signed, i want to be involved with it somehow
-have a conversation with greg simkins
-be nice enough that simkins draws a custom piece for me to get
-make plans to go to europe by the time i'm 25
-mexicooooooo
-get engaged for real?
-go surfing again
-pose for a pin-up
-do every building in kppc
-learn graffiti
-learn to play guitar (nick, please teach me finally)

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new hoodie. old business back at school. i'm glad college is the end of homework and research papers and all that shit. i have an overload of things to do tonight. maybe sarah coming isn't a good idea. but i'll regret that later. miss you bear. xo.

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going back to school tonight=[ i wish there was another blizzard to keep me here until sunday night. at least i had a really good week spending time with mike and not fighting or anything. gunna go shopping for last minute things and then picking him up. xo.

edit: mike gave ferris catnip and this was the result. he ended up biting the bag and had to get a new one. these cats are crazy, i'll never understand how they got all the awesome cats. now all we need is a peekapoo<3.

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today is gunna be fun..mike went to school and now i'm doing some work. really don't wanna go to the dmv but i guess i have to. i really wanna get my hair cut/bangs trimmed before anything today. hopefully that will work out. today has been a week since i've been home and i definitely don't want to go back. iw sih i could finish classes online or something because it's gunna be miserable tomorrow night. i'm gunna make today and tomorrow the best days ever. xo.

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why is it march already? i seriously can't believe it. christmas was 3 months ago now. i have 3 months until graduation. this is all getting too real. xo.